This is not a resolution

So, It has been a good year so far. Not much has changed from last year except I make a daily trip to the gym. I made no resolutions this year but planned on making January “me” month. I have selectively forgotten about all the housework and laundry (kinda of). I have actually felt more relaxed than ever lately. Maybe those are because of the chemicals released when working out. I have tried this in the past a few different times – but it has never felt this strong. I guess because it is finally time I do this. I am not getting any younger and my quality of life as an overweight person I imagine as a terrible thing. Full of pain and tons of medication. I have chosen not to live like that! In the first week of the new plan I have dropped 2.5 lbs! I am making small but significant changes to my diet and learn something new everyday. I am amazed at reading food labels and finding out what stuff they put into food. I have also tuned into the enjoyment of food. It is not necessarily how much you eat – but how slow and if you actually enjoy the foods you eat. I have realized on many occasions that I couldn’t remember what I ate an hour ago. But now it is a little different. I can’t wait to see what this year brings. For me it will probably be complete and utter enjoyment for being healthy and happy for myself. These past years fighting off a Thyroid disorder and dealing with the depression that comes with it have been tough of me. I feel as if I have been in the boxing ring with myself. My mind was stuck in some cationic  state.  My mind was full of ideas that my body couldn’t deal with. It made me terribly sad. This year will be different. My body will not rule my year. Thus this is not a resolution. It is a dream that I am making happen. I head out to Vegas the end of February with my sister and a girlfriend. While I don’t think I will move mountains before then, I hope to be a few LB’s lighter. It will make walking the strip more fun as well as the day we spend in the spa all the more worth it. I refuse to devalue myself during this year as I have felt in the past. This year is all mine.

I wish each and everyone of you a very very “you” year. Good luck with everything!