I am so Smart – s-m-r-t, I mean s-m-a-r-t

I want to thank Homer Simpson for my post title today. He says that in one of the many funny episodes. No, I really don’t watch the Simpsons on a regular basis and yes, this has something to do with being Hypothyroid.

My husband and I have been cleaning out our home files and I came across my old college grades and was really shocked with how I did in school. They grades were terrible. I have never really been what I call “book smart”. I have always felt I was much more “street smart” than “book smart”. I have never been one to pick up a text book and read to understand. Does this make sense? However, if I was shown or told how to do something it never leaves my brain.  BUT if you pair that  with Hypothyroidism brain fog  – you have a not so nice combination. Brain Fog is when your mind is in such disarray and not getting the enough oxygen you can’t focus on anything else. Imagine staying up for 2 full nights and not sleeping. Then try to drive your car or work on that macaroni tree for the holidays. I bet all you could think about was how tired your body and mind were. This is what being “tired” is for Hypos. This plays such a huge factor in my job. I write terrible notes but remember verbal ques like they are going out of style. I have always taken pride in knowing things by just being observant. I am constantly looking at my environment. If I drive somewhere I know that at the 7-11 I take a right and at the large brick building I take a left and so on. When I was not diagnosed for me everyday life was really hard. I felt terrible that I couldn’t remember or couldn’t learn!  I questioned myself all the time. I wrote list after list after list of mundane things I had to do. Laundry, clean the house, put my socks on, etc. I still find those lists around the house!  Thing is those things never got done because I was so tired! Now being on Armour, and feeling good,  I feel like I am in a rut. Learned behavior that I can’t seem to change. Like cleaning the house or trying to get laundry done. I have NOT DONE it for so long due to being tired or brain fogged that it has become the norm. I don’t want it to be that way – it just ended up being that way. Changing it now seems like climbing Mt. Everest. Not only that – but will I over extend myself and end up being tired the next day because I did laundry?? That hardly seems right. During the undiagnosed portion of my life, I have never felt so unsmart. And now that I have my learning capabilities back, I can’t see to relearn the daily tasks.  So, that is the next thing to strive for.

I am also struggling really hard with weight loss still. I am going to the gym every other day and doing cardio. I have put the weights away and am using the stair stepper.