UP

It is 12:35 right now and I am up and cannot sleep. Which is weird for me because we hypo’s LOVE our sleep not that we have a choice… . I don’t know what to make of this right now except I had a very stressful day at work and I have been battling a nasty cold all week. My mind can’t seem to shut off either. Do you ever have this happen? Their are a lot of things I try to do to keep my mind from racing but tonight they are just not working. I change pillows, smell lavender or use the lavender lotion I have. That usually helps. And like I said we hypos love our sleep. When I was just getting used to being Hypo and having to take Syncrap for it – I would sleep at the drop of a hat. Nope not any problems sleeping. Now taking Armour and quite a few vitamins I have a lot more energy but nothing like this!

Well, since I have some time I thought I would share my hypo story…

I can’t really remember when I became hypo because you are in such a brain freeze anyway that that actual date is hard to pin down. I do remember having heart palpations when I would do any sort of physical activities. When I say physical activities it could range from walking across the room to walking up a flight of stairs or working out in the gym. I went to the doctor after searching on the internet for my symptoms and was sure I knew what it was I was hypo. I had the symptoms of Depression, WANTING to do something but had no “get up and go” (which is actually the WORSE symptom in my mind-I like doing things. Something that I learned later was air hunger. When I would walk up a flight of stairs I would have to sit down and catch my breath. When you are hypo you either feel like you aren’t getting enough air or you just simply forget to breath!

Well that lovely doctor didn’t run any test and sent me home with a nice little prescription for some depression meds. THANKS! I knew I wasn’t depressed because I wanted to clean the house, I wanted to do laundry , I wanted to play with my cats and go on dates with my hubby but I just didn’t have the energy to do it. It frustrated me to no end. Due to my lovely weight gain my sis and I joined a boot camp at my local gym. This called for getting up at 5:00 in the morning, working out for 1 hour and always started with a fun run around the gym until they told us to stop. I know hypo’s are laughing at me and shaking their heads – this is a cause for major disaster for hypos. When you are high TSH and you expend more energy than you have you get very very very tired. We continued boot camp for a few more days. During the last week of boot camp we were doing our usual run and I realized I couldn’t do anymore. My body was resisting. My mind was saying go for it and my body wasn’t having it. My legs got weak my body felt weird – then the pounding of my heart gave me the sure sign I needed to stop. Knowing now that I could of had a heart attach scares me to no end. I went back to my doctor and said that he needed to help because I knew that this is what I had. He did test my TSH under pure duress. My results came back borderline high TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone). When your TSH is high you are hypo – when it is low you are Hyperthyroid. But he chose not to give me meds and that we would watch it. I continued to get worse, I couldn’t even roll myself out of bed anymore and was feeling very lost and alone. Why doesn’t anyone else feel this way? How come I can’t seem to remember things and keep things neat? I just couldn’t understand. My house got messier my clothes got dirtier and I felt very unkept. My skin got very dry, my nail brittle and my hair was falling out. I got very mad at my doctor and choose not to see him again and I picked up the phone and called and Endocrinologist. When they tested my TSH during that visit it came back as 8.54. I will never forget my first “real” TSH number. The one the previous doctor took was at 4.85 – not quite over by his standards. I had jumped almost 4 points within a month. Can you imagine what my health would be like if I had waited any longer??

Well, I gotta get to bed.

TTFN